So I've been doing a lot of thinking about what I should be writing about for the past several days. Hence why you haven't heard from me in a few days. I thought about what Father Francis spoke about yesterday and healing broken relationships and forgiveness is possible. A part of me thought he was insane, given what I've been through over the past several weeks. However, I knew nothing was an accident.
It hit me today at work when an unexpected customer walked into the Zone. Truthfully, I never expected to speak to this customer again nor this customer to ever talk to me. Yet, for some odd reason, God had other plans at hand. By the end of working with this customer and speaking the customer, I knew God had something big planned and nothing was an accident. Maybe this was a part of God's plan and healing was possible, therefore it gave me the perfect ground laying for this blog.
I don't know where I am going or what's going to happen but, I do know one thing is for certain, forgiveness is possible and relationships can be healed. This is the time to work on any brokenness that needs to be fixing and rid the anger there is between those who have been hurt. If we continue going on hurting each other, blaming each other, and so much more things will just continue to be one huge mess. Why must you hold on to that aggravation for this long?
The world may try to say things. It may try to put images in our heads or convinces to think others wise. This is why it is more important to put our faith in the Lord and let him guide us.
Even if relationships aren't meant to last a lifetime, understand that God puts people in our lives to teach us something or help us on our way.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Days 14-16 of Lent: Doors opening and closing
Over the past 3 days my eyes have been open and I have been trying to see the amazing plans God has laid out for me. I guess the inspiration for this blog began with a phone call from my tia on Monday while I was waiting to see the doctor. She told me, "Little one always remember, when one door closes another one opens." I told her I wasn't for sure what she meant but, I know God had her tell me that for a reason.
As several doors have been closing, I have been uncertain about why they have been yet, I have been seeing new doors open and new opportunities coming my way. I may not know what lies behind the doors but, I know with God by my side I cannot worry about what's behind the door and just open it. With each opportunity, something anew will be starting. We may not always be able to see however, when the time is right, God will show it to us. The hardest part of letting doors close and new doors open is just the thought of letting go.
Often, we are so impacted by what happens when we open doors we don't know what do when it's time to let those doors close. A part of you may want to hold on to pieces of the past but, deep down we know, God has sent a person or people into your life to deliver a message or two and you have been given the tools and instructed needed to progress in life. Just don't be afraid when the new door opens. You may never know what God has planned for you.
More importantly, understand this thought. Nothing in life is an accident. God has a perfect plan for everything. Be not afraid and trust in him. If you're worried about something, give it to God and pray to him about all the things you need to open that new door. He'll show you everything and provided for you everything you need!
As several doors have been closing, I have been uncertain about why they have been yet, I have been seeing new doors open and new opportunities coming my way. I may not know what lies behind the doors but, I know with God by my side I cannot worry about what's behind the door and just open it. With each opportunity, something anew will be starting. We may not always be able to see however, when the time is right, God will show it to us. The hardest part of letting doors close and new doors open is just the thought of letting go.
Often, we are so impacted by what happens when we open doors we don't know what do when it's time to let those doors close. A part of you may want to hold on to pieces of the past but, deep down we know, God has sent a person or people into your life to deliver a message or two and you have been given the tools and instructed needed to progress in life. Just don't be afraid when the new door opens. You may never know what God has planned for you.
More importantly, understand this thought. Nothing in life is an accident. God has a perfect plan for everything. Be not afraid and trust in him. If you're worried about something, give it to God and pray to him about all the things you need to open that new door. He'll show you everything and provided for you everything you need!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Days 9-13 of Lent: Faith is built on a Rock
I know I haven't blogged in a few days but, I have been able to have a great talk with God to be given the strength and guidance to provide a little overview of what I've been wanting to share with y'all. Granted I've been a little lost but, between speaking with some amazing individuals and finally learning to trust God, my eyes have been open.
In life, we're going to face so many struggles and ups and downs. We cannot let people bring us down and let our spirit be sucked out of us. No one in this world has the permission to take away something that makes us happy or that can knock us down. They can only do this if we let them.
Also through this process I also realized that God has build us on a rock and we can weather any storm. No storm can knock over any rock because of the firm foundation he has built. Your faith is so much stronger!!
Lastly, I have been able to see people's truest colors. Those who stand by you through your most difficult times are those who are a true friend. It's interesting to see who remain by your side and who decides to go touting out into the fields.
At the end of the day, you have to put you faith in God and see where he is leading you and know he is going to show you what is best for you!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Day 8: Know who you are
As I prepared for the 8th day of Lent's blog, I wasn't for sure what to write about. I kept on thinking how maybe I'm not exactly the best person for providing my own two sense about things however, I realized I cannot give up. As my tia always tells me "Little one, you can't give up now. Don't ever give up on something you start, even if you come back to it later." Thinking about how I almost lost her 7 years ago, I'm searching my heart for the right words and putting my hands in God.
Today I found myself getting back to a new swing of things and spending more time with God. God's love is so amazing and he's constantly with us all the time. Sometimes we forget how amazing we are and beautifully unique you are. Regardless of what the world around you might think, feel, or believe, you have to understand God has created you the way he has wanted you to be!
I know I've been walking around like a sad cat unlike the complicated, crazy, hot mess of a Tigger that my mama and adoptive mama have often called me. A part of me may have wanted to wailer in my own distress but, I guess God didn't want me to hide from a world who called me crazy, psycho and few other names. There's no one to blame for their misunderstandings and their choosing not to get to see past the surface. You just have to continue walking tall, with your head held high, and smile on your face because you know who you are.
I say to you, look deep down in your heart. Know who you are. Discover the amazing and beautiful person God has created you to be. Take the time out to tell him thank you for the 1001 blessings that he has presented in your life. Stop worrying what the world around you believes, thinks, or feels about you. So what if people don't like you. The main question is, do you like yourself?
Today I found myself getting back to a new swing of things and spending more time with God. God's love is so amazing and he's constantly with us all the time. Sometimes we forget how amazing we are and beautifully unique you are. Regardless of what the world around you might think, feel, or believe, you have to understand God has created you the way he has wanted you to be!
I know I've been walking around like a sad cat unlike the complicated, crazy, hot mess of a Tigger that my mama and adoptive mama have often called me. A part of me may have wanted to wailer in my own distress but, I guess God didn't want me to hide from a world who called me crazy, psycho and few other names. There's no one to blame for their misunderstandings and their choosing not to get to see past the surface. You just have to continue walking tall, with your head held high, and smile on your face because you know who you are.
I say to you, look deep down in your heart. Know who you are. Discover the amazing and beautiful person God has created you to be. Take the time out to tell him thank you for the 1001 blessings that he has presented in your life. Stop worrying what the world around you believes, thinks, or feels about you. So what if people don't like you. The main question is, do you like yourself?
Day 7 of Lent: Forgiveness
I know it's not the end of the day but, while I'm on fire and have God tugging at my heart I wanted to share my word of the day!
As I was completing my workout today by biking my 2.5 miles, just forgetting about the intensity of weight training and what not, I thought about my morning devotional speaking on the discussion of forgiveness and prayer. I'll be the first to admit, if anyone saw me up until about 9:30 or so this morning, I looked drained and needed something. God knows that is true. I felt emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally drained. I had been holding in all of the chaos and mess of almost 72 hours.
I remembered what I had read during my devotional. I remember reading about the power of forgiving others and forgiveness. It's probably the hardest thing for anyone to do or to understand but, it's possible. Sometimes we find ourselves so drained with trying to figure things out and trying to just find out a way to sort things out. Often we're blaming ourselves or others for everything. However, the best possible thing is to learn to forgive.
Many times we're blinded by our own guilt, worry, or other emotions. Sometimes we don't realize how much harm this is actually doing to us. The best thing for us to do is to talk to God about and seek forgiveness. The moment you do, your heart will be lift and your soul will begin to fill joy again.
Why would you want that grey cloud of unhappiness hanging around your head?
Monday, February 18, 2013
Day 6 of Lent: Run to the Light!
It's day 6 of Lent and I've been considering how I've been traveling on this crazy journey so far an sometimes I feel really lost. I know this was going to be an interesting task to take on but, I have always known God was in control. Despite it all, I have been thinking the perfect reflection for today.
As I was preparing my devotional for tonight's FCA, I did hit a few snags in the road. I didn't expect the turnovers, interceptions, or curve balls that were given to me. Yes, I panicked and didn't know what to do. I was labeled a few terms that I've never been labeled before. Yet, I knew God would help me to keep my head strong.
God's timing may not always seem the best for us but, we have to understand he does things when he believes we need it. Sometimes we are complete messes or disasters because of our pasts or what might be in our closets, well, I just want to tell you that it's ok to have pasts and skeletons but, they don't have to haunt you. You have to be able to allow yourself to understand "yes, I have a past and skeletons but, they don't control me and they don't define me. Eventually this will work out and it's going to be a brand new day."
It might be a long process to see this through but, it is possible to let it all go. Letting go might be scary but, it's something amazing and beautiful. God is there with you and will stay with you to see you through. He'll be your rock, refuge, and salvation. BUT there's one issue.
If we refuse to deal with the past and let it become an internalization process, it'll be something that will cause anger, blackening, and tell people you don't want to get to me. This could be an issue and cause more heart and harm than you might think.
Kids, take it from someone who's been there and seen the ugly side of life where it's pretty dark and cold. It's like you're walking in a sea of the lost searching for something and you just can't find it. You really say and do things that really cause guilt and dismay.
Maybe that's you. You're dealing with some of the darkness in your life and you don't know what do but, that's ok. It's not a crime. You just have to be willing to submit yourself to the brighter side of life.
It may sound crazy that you can go from dark to light but, it's possible. People don't give me the benefit of the doubt with what I've seen, done, and experienced in almost 25 years. I'll admit I'm not proud of things but, through the help and love of so many, I have been able to stop walking down the broken road alone to walk it with some amazing people. The scariest thing for me now which, I find more scary than anything else is realizing that my past can no longer define me and harm me, it can only help me get to the next step in life.
So here's my tip of the day: STOP RUNNING FROM YOUR PAST!! START RUNNING TO THE LIGHT!!
As I was preparing my devotional for tonight's FCA, I did hit a few snags in the road. I didn't expect the turnovers, interceptions, or curve balls that were given to me. Yes, I panicked and didn't know what to do. I was labeled a few terms that I've never been labeled before. Yet, I knew God would help me to keep my head strong.
God's timing may not always seem the best for us but, we have to understand he does things when he believes we need it. Sometimes we are complete messes or disasters because of our pasts or what might be in our closets, well, I just want to tell you that it's ok to have pasts and skeletons but, they don't have to haunt you. You have to be able to allow yourself to understand "yes, I have a past and skeletons but, they don't control me and they don't define me. Eventually this will work out and it's going to be a brand new day."
It might be a long process to see this through but, it is possible to let it all go. Letting go might be scary but, it's something amazing and beautiful. God is there with you and will stay with you to see you through. He'll be your rock, refuge, and salvation. BUT there's one issue.
If we refuse to deal with the past and let it become an internalization process, it'll be something that will cause anger, blackening, and tell people you don't want to get to me. This could be an issue and cause more heart and harm than you might think.
Kids, take it from someone who's been there and seen the ugly side of life where it's pretty dark and cold. It's like you're walking in a sea of the lost searching for something and you just can't find it. You really say and do things that really cause guilt and dismay.
Maybe that's you. You're dealing with some of the darkness in your life and you don't know what do but, that's ok. It's not a crime. You just have to be willing to submit yourself to the brighter side of life.
It may sound crazy that you can go from dark to light but, it's possible. People don't give me the benefit of the doubt with what I've seen, done, and experienced in almost 25 years. I'll admit I'm not proud of things but, through the help and love of so many, I have been able to stop walking down the broken road alone to walk it with some amazing people. The scariest thing for me now which, I find more scary than anything else is realizing that my past can no longer define me and harm me, it can only help me get to the next step in life.
So here's my tip of the day: STOP RUNNING FROM YOUR PAST!! START RUNNING TO THE LIGHT!!
Days 3-5 of Lent: Trust in the Lord when You're in a Hot Mess
I know it may seem I should blog every day and yes, I should since it's been my challenge and Lent commitment to do so. However, I am a firm believer God wanted me to experience a few things in life to help set me up and prepare my heart to right a simple reflection for days 3-5 of Lent. Maybe more so, it really hit home in listening to scripture last night and hearing about temptation and trusting in the Lord because he is our refuge and strength.
Considering this thought, think back to all the times you've attempted to make right, do something with all the best of intentions, or listen to your heart, and what happens they turn out in to a complete disaster or what looked like a pretty painted picture is a smeared, messy canvas of the not so pretty colors. Granted you might be confused as all get up and unsure of what to do, you probably replay the events in your head. It may seem like you had all the right moves and motives but, to someone else not so much. Next thing you know, it seems that you're in a tangled web of things and EVERYTHING has been blown over.
So what do you do?
TRUST IN THE LORD! Take that from someone who's having to learn that the hard way! God will constantly protect you and guide you. He'll watch over you and never forsake you.
Another thing, DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN! If something doesn't feel right, talk to God about that feeling. You don't want to find yourself being so tempted that you're going to be making a deal with the Devil or let evil win.
IF this does happen IT'S OK!
We all make mistakes. We are human however, you can't allow yourself to be driven up a wall with all the emotional aspects of things. God is always there to talk to. I mean seriously we all get caught up in hot messes and yes, they may not be pretty but, in life unfortantly, miscommunication mistrust, and a few other things happen to really make or break relationships.
The best thing I have learned is this, you really don't want to dig yourself deeper into a whole and end up hurting yourself even more. Take time out to talk to God and know he'll give you all the best tools to help you through it all. Don't lean on your own understandings of it all. Mostly never give up on yourself or life.
Always remember, life is just one hot mess so need to cry over hot coco!
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