She stares out the window, gazing at the storm filled cloud.
They fill the air, air that is awaiting a South Texas summer rainfall. The inspiration
and emotions began to cluster. A part of her felt elated, the other full of
furry.
She glanced at her phone. NO text. NO call. NO IM. It’s
almost like he’s already rode off into the sunset with some other princess. 9
times out of 10, she shrugged it all off but, not today.
Maybe the dark clouds coloring the blue sky grey were a sign
of the times changing. Maybe today was the day she didn’t just let it go or
just shake it off. Maybe the unexpected was going to occur.
The storm had been
brewing for months. Though she never cried, she felt it in her gut. Times were
changing. All this time, he was clueless of what her heart had been trying to
say.
She read over the last message: “Been meaning to tell you. I’m
seeing someone. I never meant to tell you this way…..” She couldn’t finish
reading the rest of it.
Here she sat for months, fighting off her heart and
feelings. He hated to see her mad and always apologized. Yet, she knew it was
time.
She picked up her phone and began to write.
“Do yo know how in sensitive you are? Do you know I had no
idea you’d text me this. Thanks for throwing a fast one. I’m done hiding. Just
know I can care for myself. For so long I took you serious. When you said best
friends make the perfect plans and partners. Let’s just wait til were 25 to get
hitched. Let’s just stay here forever. Silly me, I was a fool. All this time, I’d
been allowing myself to trust and feel again. I was thinking God had answered a
prayer. Each time I gazed into your baby blues, I could see my future and
everything felt so right. But who was I kidding. We shared each other’s dreams.
We’re each other’s rock. We are so insync. We bring out the best and worst in
each other. Time just stand stills when we’re together and nothing else
matters. You allowed me to open up and to be real. Yet, I don’t believe ho you’d
just let me dream. I can’t believe you or this. Maybe it was all a grand
illusion. Did you ever mean anything you told me? Was I just that friend who
you called upon when you needed to fill a void? Alright, enough is enough. I’m
so tired of the façade. The mask is coming off. Open your eyes and see I’m
human too. I’m taking off the gloves. No more fighting. Just know I’d take a
bullet for you. I’d handle you being gone for long periods of time for your
job. I’d love you unconditionally. Hope you’re not allowing another dreaming,
expecting a fairytale, gets her dreams dashed. Just thought you should know…..”
She paused.
She could hear the rain banding against the windows. She
focused on the soothing sound. She went back over the text. She contemplated to
send it or not.
She began to pray to God. Her phone begins to sing, “Don’t
you wanna stay…” She dropped the phone.
