Afraid to Face Him

She admires his works and gifts from a far
She knows he has been blessed with a natural ability
She could see him and his work going very far
Secretly how could she tell him
"If I ever needed anything done, personally, I would love to use you"

Some may argue with her
Call her logic a bunch of nonsense
But in her mind
She believes she'll never feel worth
Of his talents, work, and worth
Granted she would love to be captivated
By anyone's work
Letting her beauty, grace, and poise shine
Yet she feels she's nothing like his other muses
However she couldn't ever tell him
She could just go on wishing and dreaming

She know this is the man she can confide in
The man who knows about her ghosts
The man she can blow up on
Yet herself with
She's heard his story
And seen him be himself as well
This wasn't abnormal for friends
He wasn't a man she was afraid of
This was a man she trusted
And realized God had placed in her life for a reason
Still there was some hesitation

Even if she deep down
Knew how beautiful God had created her
The beauty she saw everytime
She recognized her reflection
Or saw a photograph of herself
It made her smile & thank God
Yet the though of ever
Feeling or believing she'd be just as good
As his previous muses had

You know something funny
She is just a small town girl
With really no sense of fashion
Can't really get herself all dolled up
Without the help of another
Yet deep down loves getting all dolled up
Being able to soak up the moment
Letting the camera capture it all
I guess you could say
She's like every other girl

For some reason this man
Baffles her in so many ways
As much as she would work for him
She couldn't because of her own fears
She may be confident
She maybe able to handle doing thigns independently
Seh's faced many things and won or overcame
But to face him
Would be like shattering the lens